Yes. I guess it is. [ And mind you, he doesn't see this as a flaw. ] That's how I do everything, though.
[ Does it count, then? Does it count since he doesn't know how to go halfway with anything. He pours every ounce into things, and that's part of why he can't imagine himself...well, doing anything but drawing. Maybe that's why he needs to like people before he'll hang out with them. ]
What? You want to like one thing enough you could easily ignore the other things you just like a little bit?
That doesn't sound at all like you to me. I think you like other people. It's easy to not entertain them when you don't want them around anyway.
I want to be good at something, Rohan. Maybe not famous for it, necessarily, but...
I want to feel like I was meant to do something. You were meant to be a mangaka, it's obvious. You love it, and you're good at it, and it's a part of you. It's a part of who you are.
I don't have that. The thing that became a part of who I am is "ghost". There's no future in that.
I'm just answering your question, you know. You asked whether I had something I like doing more than anything else, and the answer is no. That doesn't mean I'm unhappy with what I have.
...Does it bother you, hearing me admit to something like that? That I don't think I have that sort of "passion", I mean.
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Yes. I guess it is. [ And mind you, he doesn't see this as a flaw. ] That's how I do everything, though.
[ Does it count, then? Does it count since he doesn't know how to go halfway with anything. He pours every ounce into things, and that's part of why he can't imagine himself...well, doing anything but drawing. Maybe that's why he needs to like people before he'll hang out with them. ]
What? You want to like one thing enough you could easily ignore the other things you just like a little bit?
That doesn't sound at all like you to me. I think you like other people. It's easy to not entertain them when you don't want them around anyway.
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I want to feel like I was meant to do something. You were meant to be a mangaka, it's obvious. You love it, and you're good at it, and it's a part of you. It's a part of who you are.
I don't have that. The thing that became a part of who I am is "ghost". There's no future in that.
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However, you're not a ghost here, Reimi. You own a cat cafe and have friends, right?
[ Wasn't that something he was working on, after all? Seeing past the history. Seeing past the ghost. ]
I can't tell you how to find something you were meant to do, if it exists. Maybe you're not actually missing anything.
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...Does it bother you, hearing me admit to something like that? That I don't think I have that sort of "passion", I mean.
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Though if you weren't happy, I'd tell you that you should probably do something else until you are. Though, I'm sure you'd figure it out on your own.