[ As though she's only ever been good at caring a little. Really, who was lying to at that time?
But she doesn't miss it, Rohan's careful use of that word. He's conveying very specific things to her right now and she reads them with exceptional care. That question, though, that's a loaded one. Sees her lean back as she considers not if she should answer, but how. ]
How it should work and how it actually does aren't necessarily the same thing. Like I said, hearts are wild things and they don't always agree with the mind. The desires of those two things can easily run counter and you would think your rational mind would easily win out, but the heart is powerful when it moves, when it's moved. Even the most experienced, seasoned person may unexpectedly find themselves in a bind.
Trying to define or relegate the feeling to a single word or set of words is misleading, detrimental, too. Affection of any sort can wax and wane. A lot of people come into this idea that attraction, that love should always feel a particular kind of way and become distressed when it begins to change. If there is a constant, it is that it may remain what it is at its core and a person has to consciously realize that. That isn't always easily done.
A scorching love that burns with the heat of a passionate summer may have began like a gentle blossom in a warm spring and cool into windy, colorful autumn. It's no less a love than it began, but it is different.
[ He reads her words again and again. He processes, takes it slow, as he usually does. But he settles on a simple answer. He doesn't really have any reference points to understand it fully - having never been there, but he takes her word for it. Because why shouldn't he? She's been very honest with him and his questions and concerns. ]
I understand. You're clear.
[ Expect that things can change, but that doesn't mean that the feeling is gone, even if it's different. That much, he can handle. He's even watched his own shift just a little. ]
Truthfully, I don't want to color your expectations too much with my own experiences even though I know you're intelligent and discerning. This is a new experience for you, after all. I wonder how you'll describe it years from now?
[ But that's years away and right now, he's still figuring things out. He isn't the only person between them with things he's figuring out either, but it wasn't her intention to leave him to walk the path without so much as a guide when she revealed it to him to begin with a few days ago and that hasn't changed. ]
But if you do find yourself with questions, you know where to find me.
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But she doesn't miss it, Rohan's careful use of that word. He's conveying very specific things to her right now and she reads them with exceptional care. That question, though, that's a loaded one. Sees her lean back as she considers not if she should answer, but how. ]
How it should work and how it actually does aren't necessarily the same thing. Like I said, hearts are wild things and they don't always agree with the mind. The desires of those two things can easily run counter and you would think your rational mind would easily win out, but the heart is powerful when it moves, when it's moved. Even the most experienced, seasoned person may unexpectedly find themselves in a bind.
Trying to define or relegate the feeling to a single word or set of words is misleading, detrimental, too. Affection of any sort can wax and wane. A lot of people come into this idea that attraction, that love should always feel a particular kind of way and become distressed when it begins to change. If there is a constant, it is that it may remain what it is at its core and a person has to consciously realize that. That isn't always easily done.
A scorching love that burns with the heat of a passionate summer may have began like a gentle blossom in a warm spring and cool into windy, colorful autumn. It's no less a love than it began, but it is different.
[ She pauses now. ]
Am I making sense, Rohan-kun?
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I understand. You're clear.
[ Expect that things can change, but that doesn't mean that the feeling is gone, even if it's different. That much, he can handle. He's even watched his own shift just a little. ]
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[ But that's years away and right now, he's still figuring things out. He isn't the only person between them with things he's figuring out either, but it wasn't her intention to leave him to walk the path without so much as a guide when she revealed it to him to begin with a few days ago and that hasn't changed. ]
But if you do find yourself with questions, you know where to find me.