[ Rohan recalls those moments. The way she looked on camera, the way she called him hers. The fact that she noted to him, even, that he was important to her. But all of those things, they didn't necessarily mean she had feelings for him. Her Lightning. She is right when she says they're not the same. Rohan's been numb to the idea of getting close to others for most of his life. Or all of it that he remembers.
And, well, maybe it was also because he knew, somewhere, that he'd be okay without her ever returning those feelings to him - as long as she stayed close to him anyway. For all of his efforts not to do it - it was hard to not see Reimi as everything good. She gave him his life. And he had convinced himself, and told her, that nothing she could do to hurt how he thought of her. And that was true.
So it's only natural that it'd be different. He didn't necessarily they'd really be similar. But the feeling? He knew it. He could recognize it. He knew what it was like, and he'd have to know more to see what was going on in Setsura's head.
Whatever she'd share, of course. He wouldn't dare use his ability on her for something like this. ]
Of course it isn't the same. And I didn't think this absolved me of trying to find out how I want to approach this.
[ A game plan. He needed that to approach this. Maybe he'd produce some short manga - 4 panels, probably - to help him better figure out what he needed. He's sure that's not what most people do, but for him. ]
You and I are different enough that I didn't think it would be, either. But you need to be fair to yourself. You deserve to have what you want.
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And, well, maybe it was also because he knew, somewhere, that he'd be okay without her ever returning those feelings to him - as long as she stayed close to him anyway. For all of his efforts not to do it - it was hard to not see Reimi as everything good. She gave him his life. And he had convinced himself, and told her, that nothing she could do to hurt how he thought of her. And that was true.
So it's only natural that it'd be different. He didn't necessarily they'd really be similar. But the feeling? He knew it. He could recognize it. He knew what it was like, and he'd have to know more to see what was going on in Setsura's head.
Whatever she'd share, of course. He wouldn't dare use his ability on her for something like this. ]
Of course it isn't the same. And I didn't think this absolved me of trying to find out how I want to approach this.
[ A game plan. He needed that to approach this. Maybe he'd produce some short manga - 4 panels, probably - to help him better figure out what he needed. He's sure that's not what most people do, but for him. ]
You and I are different enough that I didn't think it would be, either. But you need to be fair to yourself. You deserve to have what you want.